Jane here: Thank you so much everyone for your prayers and support – the procedure did go ahead today but unfortunately they could not position the tube properly and so it has been unsuccessful yet again. Not entirely unexpected but nevertheless a shock.
What is going to happen is that Philip will move to Dr. Gray’s hospital in Elgin early next week, continuing with the intravenous feeding, and with a view to organising being at home from there. He currently has another lung infection (being treated with antibiotics) and we all felt that this was the best move, especially as Elgin is just twenty minutes drive from our home in Forres. He may be up to posting a blog himself this weekend, I don’t know.
What more can I say? Have the implications of this really hit me (or him) yet? I don’t know. What I do know is that I have waves of disbelief that this is happening at all, and he, believe it or not, has cracked two jokes today 
What an amazing man I have married!
And he was clever enough to find you Jane…You are both an inspiration. I am glad you will be nearer home…..xxx
Dear Jane and Philip
My heart reaches out to you both.
So glad to hear that you will be (almost) back home early next week.
I love you,
Lisa x
oh Jane, I feel for you dear one… if you need a hug or anything, text me and I’ll come over to CLAN. We are still at Camphill until Sat morning
lovely to see you this morning! you are doing really really well
big hug
Carin (and Ian) and of course there is no need of a reply..
So sorry to hear this disappointing news. Glad Philip will be nearer home soon.
Thinking of you both and sending my love,
Wyon
Dear ones, I am sad. Perhaps we don’t yet know the consequences. The fat lady has not yet sung. I look forward to seeing you at home nearer Christmas
Xx
Remember that the prayers are still working even if the procedure didn’t.
Glad to hear you will be moving back north.
I hope to be back by 9th Dec ( still waiting for baby to arrive) so will see you then.
Sending you both love and blessings.
What an amazing journey you are both traveling… with such openness and grace. I hold you both in my prayers and hope to see you in Elgin or Forres. Thanks for the emails and the updates. love, Janelle
We shall all continue to feed you both with oodles of love and support. Thrilled to hear you will be closer to home. Sending prayers and healing constantly xxxx
I love you both! Tapping some ease your way…
Blessings & Hugs,
Sondra
Sending you both love and light.
blessings,
michael
(Written after meditation):
Dear hearts, your journey is full of setbacks and disappointments, all for a reason too deep to fathom. The setbacks prolonged hope, now is the time for acceptance. Philip, you are surely an old soul and soon you will be returning home. And Jane, he will always be with you.
This is something that came to me out of the blue following a meditation and sleep at the Penny Brohn centre this week, sitting where. Philip sat in the Gareden Room. I hope it doesn’t jarr for you at this challenging time:
Thoughts after meditation at a Returners’ Retreat November 2011
I sleep, as the gentle music lulls and nourishes my slumbered soul.
I love, with warmth of heart and gratitude to be here, still.
What is death but such a slumber, as the body rests, no longer needed, and the soul arises and heads for home? – one moment looking back, observing the pain of those bereft, then floating onwards, with gladness to the spirit realm, which is here, all around, yet not seen, or heard, or felt, by those remaining.
We are one, yet do not know it yet. We drift, here and there, yet in one place. We are the wind, the gentle rain, the trees, the song, we are the very Spark of Life, yet in our human form, we do not know it yet. It is for us to discover, when we are ready; for others it is yet far away. Death holds no fear, unless we create it for ourselves. There is no loss, our loved ones are here, and there, simultaneously – there is no separate time and space – we are One, and held in Love. For Love is all that is, and all else is merely a lack of love, as with an eye-blink we allow ourselves the momentary distraction of hate, or war, or greed – a lusting after ‘ownership’ that is mere illusion, for we cannot own, but only borrow, to be left behind when we emerge from the chrysalis of our human form.
Love is all-pervading, and all that matters. Let us dance to its song and share its meaningfulness, recognising, when we can, our own divinity, and our connection with the divinity of all forms of life, whether seen, heard, felt or only hinted at. We are beautiful, we are Love, we are Divine.
You are always in my thoughts.
love and blessings
no adequate words – just walking with you in my heart –
all that is God & Buddha bless u both
xb
Jane and Phillip, dear ones,
May the love we share bless you both, now and always.
Veda
Hi there you both. I have wanted to reach out so many different times with the right words, inspired thought, or what ever else…. suffice to say I love you both and you are dancing in the love of my heart on a regular basis.
So grateful for the reflection of vulnerability and strength. Deep hugs of peace. x
My heart flies through the night to be with you both….and I send love and support as you continue this deeply challenging journey…how amazing you both are!
with love and gratitude…..Sara xxx
Love to you both.
xxxx
Crispin
“We are carrying an inexhaustible treasure of diamonds …” Osho
Philip, this touched my heart as I read it .. and I felt hope and a sense of belief and trust that we all have this amazing treasure within. From what I have read over these past weeks on your blog, it seems that you have discovered how to allow the light from your inner diamonds to shine out (to others) in more ways than you or I may ever know. I pray that I may discover how to allow my inner treasure to shine.
Sending love to you and Jane and to all who care for you xx
What a privilege to be allowed to share your inner sanctums. May you both continue to shine your light and open to receive the love that is pouring out to you, and thereby benefiting the whole of humanity.
Huge blessings and enfolding love,
Sylvia xxx
Much love to you both at this most tender of all times.
It can be so hard that the healing we receive is not always that which our hearts and minds would choose. It sounds like you have come to an immensely peaceful place within you Philip and for that I am glad.
I continue to hold you in my prayers.
Pam xx
Hi Jane I am really sorry to hear of your loss. With the attidude you both had I really thought he was going to win this battle but obvoulsly not meant to be. there is another reason god needed him early. just stay strong and I wish you well.
Valerie xxx